Talitha koum

I really shouldn't go this long without blogging, because then I wind up with entirely too much I want to say... but with life so busy with papers and finals... I'm just now stopping to rest and breathe.
Thought of the day? I hate saying goodbye. Especially when it means that I don't know when I'll see my best friend again...
I know goodbyes are a part of life, but that fact does not make them any easier. But He never said this life would be easy, did He?
"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the Lord who has compassion on you. -Isaiah 54:10
This is his promise. He is faithful, even in the middle of the chaos and confusion.
I just want to share some of the scripture God has shown me... and I want you to know that I did not pray for strength, because I don't know how to use the strength He gives. No, I prayed for Him to carry me. Let this be your prayer, especially if you feel like you are stumbling through the desert... because I'm stumbling through it too.
"But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit." Jeremiah 17:7-8
"Be my rock of refuge to which I can always go... Your righteousness reaches to the skies, Oh God, you who have done great things. Who, oh God, is like you? Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again." -Psalm 71: 3, 19-21

Why do we forget so quickly how faithful our God is? He has brought us through so much, and even if we must walk through a trial for this short time, He will restore our lives again. He IS our comforter, even when we try to push Him away. His love is unfailing, and his wisdom is incomprehensible. Even though the road is hard, there is a reason He is leading us down it. So we can either look impatiently for the end, and close our eyes tightly to the pain along the way... or we can see the pain, accept it as part of the journey, and look along the path among the pain for the lesson He is trying to teach us.
My heart's cry in this time:
From when I wake up until I lay down again,
May my every moment be lived in submission to You.
Let me seek You first
and come to You always
with every tear, need, smile, and joy
You are my Only.

Song of my heart: Be Thou My Vision
"Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought by day or by night
Waking or sleeping Thy presence my light
Be thou my wisdom and Thou my true word
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord
Thou my great Father, I , Thy true son
Thou in me dwelling and I with Thee one
Riches I heed not nor man's emptly praise
Thou mine inheritance now and always
Thou and thou only first in my heart
High King of heaven my treasure Thou are
High King of heaven my victory won
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heaven's Sun
Heart of my own heart whatever befall
Still be my vision O Ruler of all"


Mark 5:41 "He took her by the hand and said to her, 'Talitha koum!' (which means, 'Little girl, I say to you, arise!')

A word from my Father:
"Little girl, I say to you, arise! Shake off your chains of sorrow, and step into the freedom of my peace. Yes, there will still be pain. I need to refine you. I want you to be more like me, and for that you have to be tested. I know it hurts. I know. But I will carry you if you let me. All you have to do is ask. Turning to others for comfort in this time will only get you so far. You have to turn to Me. Run to my arms, daughter! I'm waiting on you. I love you so much, and I know you feel forsaken by me. But I promise I have never left your side. Will you trust me? Will you obey even though it's hard? Will you follow me? The road only gets harder from here. You have no idea how much harder... but if you take the easy path you won't grow. If you don't grow how can I use you for all I made you for? Arise, daughter. You know the way to which I have called you. It will not be easy, but it is the only way for you. My way. Take up your cross. You are beginning to see what it feels like to leave everyone behind in order to run after me. I promise you it's worth it. Please stop thinking only of your own discomfort... think of all those I'm sending you to who need the hope that you have in your heart. Run the race with endurance. Do not lose heart. Put your confidence in Me. Let me be your Only. Follow me.
Talitha koum."

Let Him steady your heart.
This new song by Kari Jobe is the music to what this post expresses...